I realized that not only have I given up on the dream, I gave up in my dreams. It's disturbing. Imagine I'm asleep; I'm having a fantasy: room full of beautiful ladies somewhere, and I'm there looking incredibly handsome, doing all the right things, making eye contact, being all rude and sexy. Right when I'm about to make my move, right when I'm about to go in for the kill, I'm like, 'Man, f**k this. I'm just going to fly home on my dragon and masturbate in my castle.'